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#1 xDetachmentx

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Posted 23 July 2019 - 09:33 AM

I'm looking through the R.I.P Amy Jade Winehouse post for the 1000th time and it's still just as heartbreaking. I remember my first reaction, and being with my aunt at the time. The shooting in Norway was still on the news, and the coverage was interrupted to announce that Amy had died. Anyone else remember how they found out?


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#2 MingusMonk&Amy

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Posted 23 July 2019 - 10:11 AM

I saw it on the Teletext front page. It took a whole week before I could grasp it emotionally. I was walking around feeling nothing for a whole week and then all the feelings came. I remember yearning to listen to her music but it was too heartbreaking so the only way I could do it was to have a predetermined time every week. So for the past 8 years, I've had every Saturday evening as my "Amy Time".

 

I became a Amy devotee in the summer of 2010 so I only had 1 year with her alive. I still remember that day very clearly. It was when I listened to the B2B album for the first time (astonished with my mouth wide open I'm sure). It was around midnight and rapper Ice Cube was on TV. I never thought I would have just one voice that I'd prefer over all the others, but when I heard Amy everyone else disappeared. I was in love.


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Posted 23 July 2019 - 07:27 PM

A friend called to tell me. I didn't believe him and played it off...I must've checked five or six websites before it (almost) sank in. Then came the texts from my family and friends...ugh!  What a truly shitty day. I went through multiple stages of grief in a matter of hours.  I mostly remember the anger...wow, was I pissed at her!  And the '27 Club' bullshit, too...like, how cliché!  Although I came to appreciate that as a small measure of comfort - the fact that she's rightfully mentioned in the same breath as some of music's greatest. 

 

I remember that my wife was out at the time, and when she got home she looked at me like 'WHAT??!!' - I didn't realize it was all over my face.  I couldn't speak it - had to pull up a website to show her (and myself once more...secretly hoping it'd be announced as a hoax this time).  The last thing I did that night was play BTB, and I remember feeling...empty.  Just very empty and very alone.


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Posted 23 July 2019 - 07:30 PM

Today, I mourn, and I celebrate her. I allow myself to cry (more so than I already do at times, just ask my hubby) I eat haribo, watch my favorite Amy videos, look through the books I've been able to get and some collectables, smoke my ciggies, and drink a few Rickstasy's (damn that girl had taste! And damn these things are strong!)
I get so emotional every year on this day, because I too remember it so clearly. I had been an avid fan since 2006, and I remember by the time she was being hounded every step of the way, I had Google alerts turned on for her so I wouldn't miss anything.
I remember walking across the gravel driveway and through the small center garden of my parents home, beautiful woodland sounds all around, sun shinning, thinking of what I would do for the rest of my day. I sit in my Jeep, debating whether to put the top down, and then open my phone.
It honestly shocked me; I knew I loved her, and I knew I loved her for more than her amazing voice, jarring and relatable lyrics, that naturally captivating beauty that she enhanced with the cat eyes and tattoos and hair(yet still somehow hid behind it), but more so that it was the first time I had seen someone only a few years older than I, who had gone through very, very similar things just on very different scales - her and I actually got sober from drugs at the same time, within a weeks time actually, it was quite uncanny - to see a girl with such beauty and extraordinary talent be real, be imperfect, different, honest, crass, embarrassing, hilarious....it was like I had been searching for this woman all my life, and I knew her, because she was so like me, and so unlike me at the same time. She taught me that it's okay to be different, to be true, no matter what, even if it wasn't flattering or ladylike or even likable.

I sat in my Jeep for two hours, unable to drive or move really, just crying.

Most don't understand, many think I'm obsessed, others think I'm glamorizing. But it's so much more than that, and she has always been more than that to me. I feel like I lost a best friend that day, as crazy as I know it sounds, but it's true. Not a day has gone by that I haven't missed her, for all of her, the good and the bad, the beauty of her soul and the ugliness of her addictions, her maternal love that shown through and her sharp, sometimes cruel wit. Her unearthly, almost mythological way of making music that steeps with emotion yet transports us to an alternate time of 60s pop girl groups and jazzy soul that is timeless yet so modern. Her unwavering, manic love for her husband, even with all the sickness they put each other through. I could go on forever it feels about how much this woman means to me, and how she continues to inspire me every SINGLE day, without fault, even when it feels like the sky is crashing down, she holds me up and let's me know to fight, just like she did, until the end. Not every failure is the end, but one day it may be, so make it count NOW. As she famously said, "Life's short. Anything could happen, and it usually does, so there is no point in sitting around thinking about all the ifs, ands and buts." & "I don't care what people think about me. Never did, never will. Life is too short to be worrying about that shit."
I love you, Amy, forever and always. 🙏🏻❤️

And I love all of you fellow admirers and fans. Thank you for being here, remembering her with me. I honestly think I'd go crazy without this forum, even though I've been a bit absent in recent days. ❤️
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Posted 23 July 2019 - 09:59 PM

First off... agonizingly beautiful post, Gorejuice.

 

For me, I was eating at a local mexican restaurant, with a friend. We were waiting on our food, and I pulled up TMZ, and saw the news. Lost my appetite and didn't even take the food home.

 

Like many others, I felt like I knew her. That, no doubt, is due to the hauntingly reality in her voice and lyrics. She didn't hide anything, even the stuff that you or I would never share.

 

Today I got in to work early and printed a new image of Amy and cut her signature out of plastic, and added it to my wall.

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I know I'm not alone when I say, I wish I had known her and could have offered help.

 

We miss you, Amy.


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Posted 27 July 2019 - 03:23 AM

I remember the day that she passed away...I never felt that pain ,the desperation   . I really thought one day I would get a chance to see her in concert, but sadly, that is what it has come too , remembering Amy . I hope we get new music from her , something new. 

I miss Amy a lot , she was so unique, raw.  

I know i am a little late I was out of it on her anniversary and I noticed that i get sad in July. all the time now.

 

hope all are well. I hope this forum stays active i love how we can all come together . 


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John 17:25-26 “Righteous Father, though the world does not know you, I know you, and they know that you have sent me. I have made you known to them, and will continue to make you known in order that the love you have for me may be in them and that I myself may be in them.”





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