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[BatheUnderBlueLight]

I'm asking really random questions now but what was Amy's fears?

[galadriel_21]

I know she said she didn't want to die in her last couple of weeks, so possibly death. We can also infer that she was afraid of being alone or never being a mother. I know, it's really sad

[amyinourhearts]

"Herself" as she states in Reclaming Amy documentary

Min 02:47

[amywinehouse.eus]

She also said several times that she was afraid of fame

[pinkismyfavoritecrayon]

Fame, death, social isolation, not becoming a mother, and herself.

At one point she was terrified of hardcore drugs. (excluding pot, obviously) She saw them a lot in Camden and as far as I know didn't start them until after she went back to Blake. before she started them herself she witnessed what cocaine and heroin do to people. 

I think too one of her biggest fears was being mediocre, and failing her music career. I think that's something that isn't discussed enough. Amy hated fame but she cared about her public image. Being perceived as mediocre or a sellout was not what she wanted for her reputation as a music artist. I think when she cleaned up she came to the realization how much drugs and alcohol destroyed her public image. And of course the reason she sank that far; Blake.

[AmyWinehouse9and14]

I'm asking really random questions now but what was Amy's fears?

Just before she died she said to her doctor she didn't want to die.

[BatheUnderBlueLight]

At one point she was terrified of hardcore drugs. (excluding pot, obviously) She saw them a lot in Camden

 

Yeah! In Camden, there are a lot of hardcore drugs and people who are addicted to them. I remember I was leaving court and saw a homeless man giving out pills to these two ladies. I had never seen it before, so I thought it was strange. The only drug that I've seen around that place were people smoking weed, but I guess people consider weed as 'a safe' drug.

[blacktoypoodle]

Fame, death, social isolation, not becoming a mother, and herself.

At one point she was terrified of hardcore drugs. (excluding pot, obviously) She saw them a lot in Camden and as far as I know didn't start them until after she went back to Blake. before she started them herself she witnessed what cocaine and heroin do to people.

I think too one of her biggest fears was being mediocre, and failing her music career. I think that's something that isn't discussed enough. Amy hated fame but she cared about her public image. Being perceived as mediocre or a sellout was not what she wanted for her reputation as a music artist. I think when she cleaned up she came to the realization how much drugs and alcohol destroyed her public image. And of course the reason she sank that far; Blake.

Amy did hard drugs before going back to Blake. She told her mom she tried heroin and there's a video pre-B2B of her on heroin. Even Nick Shymansky and Alex Clare said they thought she was on drugs before B2B.

[amyinourhearts]

Amy did hard drugs before going back to Blake. She told her mom she tried heroin and there's a video pre-B2B of her on heroin. Even Nick Shymansky and Alex Clare said they thought she was on drugs before B2B.

What video are you talking about? can you share the link?

[BatheUnderBlueLight]

Amy did hard drugs before going back to Blake. She told her mom she tried heroin and there's a video pre-B2B of her on heroin. Even Nick Shymansky and Alex Clare said they thought she was on drugs before B2B.

I remember hearing about that as well. I think I’ve read it in an article or a YouTube comment, I can’t really remember.

I’m not sure if it’s true though.

[BatheUnderBlueLight]

I found an article. https://www.dailymai...final-days.html

“She smoked heroin and told Janis 'it's not for me'”

It doesn’t specify much however, like when she did it or how old she was.

[BatheUnderBlueLight]

“She just loved smoking weed. And it had to be what she called 'natural weed', nothing synthetic, definitely no hard drugs. I'd tried pills a couple of times, which didn't agree with me, and Amy told me off.
'You don't do that!' she scolded. 'Don't do chemical, only do natural.
Oh yeah, Amy and the first thing you do in the morning is roll a spliff.'
"Yeah but that is natural.'
That was her stance at the time, she was righteous: do not do hard drugs. Do not, do not, do not, do not”

Extract from Tyler James’ book “My Amy”. I think this was before she met Blake, around in 2002?

[pinkismyfavoritecrayon]

I found an article. https://www.dailymai...final-days.html

“She smoked heroin and told Janis 'it's not for me'”

It doesn’t specify much however, like when she did it or how old she was.

Yeah, she tried it. Someone else was fact-checking me, none of us are sure when she became a drug addict. Or she gradually introduced herself into it and it did not become a full-fledged addiction until late 2006 or early 07. I don't think she became an addict until after she married Blake to be honest.  There's a lot of people who do these hard drugs in moderation and never became addicted to it.

[blacktoypoodle]

Yeah, she tried it. Someone else was fact-checking me, none of us are sure when she became a drug addict. Or she gradually introduced herself into it and it did not become a full-fledged addiction until late 2006 or early 07. I don't think she became an addict until after she married Blake to be honest. There's a lot of people who do these hard drugs in moderation and never became addicted to it.

Oh, I wasn't implying anything about addiction. I'm just stating that a lot of people think Amy never did anything harder than weed before B2B Blake era, but it's not true. Even Tyler didn't know the extent of it.

I don't think she was afraid of hard drugs. It just was something that she didn't care much for until she felt like she had to be on Blake's level so he wouldn't leave her again.

[blacktoypoodle]

What video are you talking about? can you share the link?

https://youtu.be/xyS...cB5pYoejXKd5xe2

Not sure if it'll send you to the right timestamp, but i believe it starts at :23. This interview is featured in the doc and it's much higher quality, where you can clearly see her pupils are pinned (a sign of opoid use) and her eyes are rolling around (another sign).

Obviously not definitive proof, but if you're aware of the signs of heroin use, it's hard not to notice. But just my two cents.