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My experience getting into Amy Winehouse


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#1 galadriel_21

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Posted 18 December 2024 - 01:32 AM

This is my experience of getting into Amy.

 

It was 2018-2019, and Amy (2015) was on Netflix. I had just been watching true crime documentaries as well as other memoirs. I knew Amy was an icon, but had never heard anything besides I Heard Love Is Blind (not sure how that happened). As someone born in 2002, I had only seen Amy on the covers of tabloids at the supermarket checkout. Really terrible things about her, I always cringed and looked away. Never had an actual opinion on the lady, little did I know I would become so infatuated! 

 

Anyway, I watched the documentary and related immensely to the bulimia side of things. I began listening to her music, from top to bottom, beginning with Frank of course. I LOVED the album, I would smoke weed and escape to my room with it. Playing the Sims 4 and having it on in the background. Mr Magic, especially, was fitting. I don't smoke weed anymore, I prefer beer and liquor unfortunately, although I would love to switch back.

 

Then, I moved on to Back to Black. What a monster of an album, totally iconic. Rehab hit hard, and Tears Dry on Their Own was my favorite. Years went by, and Amy was one of my favorite artists, another member of the 27 Club to retain in my loving memory. 

 

However, eventually, relationships came and gone. I played Mr Magic to my situationship at the time, and he rolled his eyes and ignored it. I felt really overlooked and misunderstood. I eventually let him go due to his attitude. Then a more serious relationship came, my first boyfriend, who I am still reeling from. It lasted 2 and a half years, and Amy covered it herself because she's such a genius. Amy came back into my life, stronger than ever. I turned to alcohol, and quickly fell apart. I discovered a total betrayal from my ex boyfriend, my first love. Not gonna get into it here, it's unnecessary. 

 

Now, things remain mostly the same. I turn to alcohol everyday, some moments of sobriety. I mostly feel bored and dreadful without it. Weed makes me anxious and have panic attack moments, so it's not a reliable escape, much to my dismay. I relate a lot to Amy, she is my idol, my one moment of release of pain. 

 

Thank you if you read this, this is my story. Amy is a guardian, an icon :)


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#2 whatisitaboutmen

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    it’s a bit upsetting at the end, isn’t it?

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Posted 18 December 2024 - 03:30 AM

the way i got into amy from watching the documentary one day too. i think i started getting into her in 2020. frank album had me hooked & i wasn't into back to black as much as i am now. i don't like rehab to this day. i understand why it immediately caught peoples attention & it is catchy but it breaks my heart to hear because it killed her. i wish people would take the time to learn about her before judging. it's crazy because people still think less of her/judge her & she's gone now. basically, everything she experienced still happens. babygirl had no peace on earth. it breaks my heart. she was so misunderstood. i also have terrible panic attacks from weed & it amazes me how most people take it to relax but it does the exact opposite for me. also, i just got back into sims 4 & i'm obsessed at the moment til i hyperfixate on something else lol.


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he can only hold her for so long, the lights are on but no one's home.


#3 Backfrankblack1

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Posted 18 December 2024 - 04:21 AM

Even though the documentary isn't perfect,it helped fix Amy's image a lot. People that I knew personally stopped judging Amy once they saw that documentary.
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#4 loveAMYforever

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Posted 18 December 2024 - 10:45 AM

I first heard Back to Black, I have to say, I wasn't someone who followed music back then because everything sounded so superficial. I was never a typical fan of anyone either. With this album, of course Back to Black, I was immediately captivated by the sound and the darkness and then Amy's voice. There are few songs that I can listen to again and again. And apart from Rehab, which was never my favorite for many reasons, it is my favorite album. Of course I bought Frank afterwards and was honestly confused. I had somehow imagined something different. But the more often I listened to it and read the lyrics, the more enthusiastic I became. The title is so fitting, this freshness and honesty. Amy sings like others would box - right in your face. Many artists sing according to the motto "I want to be famous, so I sing this and that and hope that people like it", Amy was against this: I sing what I have experienced and if you don't like it - fuck it. I love people who don't want to conform. I'm like that myself. From mid-2007 there were those terrible pictures of her in the press. And I blame some of them for Amy's downfall! The Sun in particular. Amy always said that criticism didn't bother her, but I never believed that - it must have hurt her.
 
Galadriel 21: your story doesn't sound good. Unfortunately, I know addiction from my own experience. It's a monster. And when you're feeling bad and you really need someone to talk to, there's usually no one there. But addiction is, and it actually helps in that moment. I can't give you any advice, and I don't know to what extent that's allowed here. Personally, I think alcohol is much more dangerous than weed. And Amy died from that damn stuff. But maybe it'll help you to keep a kind of diary of when you drink and why. You can also write about Amy here in the forum, that helped me a lot. But it's difficult to help you because I don't know you and I don't want to come across as a schoolmaster. I haven't overcome the addiction either and I still struggle from time to time.

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#5 loveAMYforever

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Posted 18 December 2024 - 10:50 AM

Oh yes, and I also play Roller Coaster Life, where you build an amusement park, and Zoo Life (surprise, you build a zoo). Great for distraction, but not for someone who doesn't have time.


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