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[Lorie]

I was in a bar with a couple of friends when a friend of mine got a call from her sister. She was upset and staring at me, and I was like -tell me, what is wrong, what happened, is everything ok ? She hung up the phone and said- stay calm, my sister is crying and I don't have the heart to tell you . I said, with tears in my eyes, who died ? she just said Amy. Sily me, I started lughing, tought he was joking,and then checked facebook and everyone had a Amy RIP status. I started crying like mad, an all the people in the bar turned an looked at me, I couldn't breathe.. It was one of the worst moments in my life. I hate that day.

[Amy Jenna Harper]

Its so commendable to be telling all these stories! Sometimes its hard to think back to a painful memory and tell of it. Some are just so sad, she meant so much.

Yes,
So sad all of this

[LaPeep]

Your mom is f'in cool

Ah this thread is painful to read. I 'm one of those who learned about her only after her death. All i knew about her before was 'Rehab' and some drug/party stories.

So it was evening when my mother told me "You know who died today, Amy Winehouse?" and i was like ok whatever and then she responded to me that she had one of the most amazing voices. Later that night i was listening to different songs on Youtube and came across 'Teach Me tonight' live performance of her (well actually my mother was listening to her stuff and it came on her sidebar). And it gave me goosebumps... At that moment i thought i have not heard anything like this before.

It didn't hurt me when I 1st learned about her death, but every moment from there on was more and more painful as i was discovering her. Wish i hadn't learned about her this way.

[LaPeep]

MDPA Haha I used to do the same thing, google Amy News. Actually how sad am I, I still do it?

[Amysanchorcat]

I was faffin about on net, b4 i started to get ready to go out, saw it as someones status on FB around 4-ish,

Way i felt when i heard she left us, was mad, even tho at the time, i wasn't really a fan, again, coz i don't give anyone a chance, i just stick with 'my' music, remember her from Frank days, just saw a babe with an axe and thought, nah, saw pix in press, when she 1st changed appreance and the fuss in press, always read it.

Then, all the shit in the papers started, again i can't be arsed with all the celeb stuff, holds no interest, so i didn't take note, just disregarded, nothin personal, just me bein me, used to think she was an idiot, coz thats all u got to see of her, i knew she was brilliant, and everyone was goin mad bout her, i don't like what everyone else does, so still didn't bother, guess alot of ppl did that.

But, when she passed, what i felt shocked me, i was angry at her, n cried on the spot, was like whats up with me, i've never cried over a celeb death, was/am proper gutted, then checked her out proper, and totally fell in love wth her, i won't have a bad word said bout her, lol, she really was just somethin else, on every level, as a person and as a musician.

She went thru hell in a short space o time, death of gran, two hard drug addictions, 2 eatin disorders, self harmin, love troubles, despression, emotional issues, pressures of fame, alcoholism, all tha while bein played out unda tha scrutiny of the media, bein bullied n havin piss took outa her, by media, bein stalked 24/7 by paps, n all tha while stayed a lovely, witty girl, always had times for fans, fam n her mates, what a wonderful n inspirational woman.

Knowin what she went thru in her life at certain times, i've never felt such compassion for for a celeb, wanted to give her a hug, tell her she's loved, gutted i never got to see her live, got to meet her, but i can't change anything, and at least i found her now, rather than never, and i've met some cool, lovely, funny ppl on here coz of Amy.

It seems so wrong that she's gone, every now n then, it does my head in, she shd still be here, makin us laugh n givin us eargasmz .

Weird that she is gone, i try look at it like she went on holiday and retired, but she's keepin any eye on us lot n pissin herself at us, theres so much to remind us of her, her music, quirks, pix, theres alot to smile about, n i'm grateful for havin her and for touchin me the way she has.

Love her to bits, my kind of person, God Bless her, miss u girl, keep throwin us all winks n keepin us smilin.

Thanx to all u lot, hugs n love to u all n Hang on in there, we all got each other n out funny threads, memories of our girl. xxx

[iwakeupalone]

I was on the bus home, feeling rough/hungover after a night out with friends celebrating my 19th. I remember where I was sitting on the bus, and what road I was on. I was listening to Gorillaz - Broken. Then my mum called me. I remember a few people were staring at me because I was shouting and asking lots of questions in disbelief. As soon as I put the phone down, I listened to "Wake Up Alone"/"Back to Black" on repeat until I got home.

[what'sinsideher]

MDPA Haha I used to do the same thing, google Amy News. Actually how sad am I, I still do it?

I had a google alert set up for her. I still have it, in fact, but I haven't checked the emails since the day she died.

[LauraWinehouse]

my mum was outside with my kids (im UK time) at the time, I was listening to some music channel I don't remember what and I needed to go to the shops so when I came out there was my mum and her 2 neighbours standing gabbing so I said where I was going she was like uve not heard have you. I was like what, then she said 4 words Ill never forget, Amy winehouse is dead. so what did I do....... laughed and walked off, thinkin bull un known to me she had, I was gutted because I though she'd live forever and my heart breaks everytime I think about it, I think of Amy when I go to sleep, when I wake up, I spend the majority of the day listening to her still hoping its a big horrible dream x

[MDPA]

MDPA Haha I used to do the same thing, google Amy News. Actually how sad am I, I still do it?

I think we can be sad together because i do too! hah just not as often anymore. Im so mad i wont get to read another little story about her like "Amy Winehouse is now obsessed with Cleaning!" or "Amy goes to the opening of an African restaurant in London" lol

[moiraproject]

I was preparing things for my travel to Seattle. One minute before I was happy and I can't wait to live... a minute late I was terribly sad! I though it was untruth .. maybe a fake news .. but it wasn't ..
The day after at the airport I bought all the british papers I found .. I read all the time during the long flight..
Today .. I can't believe she's gone!

[Black_pearl]

I found out far too early. I was talking with this guy on msn that gets his news from whatever shady websites, and he told me before it was out everywhere. It literally punched me in the chest, and I couldn't believe it, and threatened him that I won't speak to him again if he makes THIS kind of stupid jokes.
Then it started popping out everywhere. I was so devasted. I still am.

[Nasha]

I can still very vividly remember the moment (sometimes it feels like it was yesterday) and I think I forever will...

It was around 7 PM, and I was at my parents' house. They had just come back from a trip to Barcelona, and while they were unpacking upstairs, I was downstairs in the living room watching their holiday photos on the digital camera screen. The radio was playing upstairs, it sounded like it was the news, but I couldn't understand what was said.

Then it happened. I heard my mother going down the stairs. She said something with the word "dead" (well, in French, of course) in it. I already knew about the Norway massacre, so I assumed it was about that. When she got into the living room, I asked what she'd just said. She answered: I just heard on the radio that... and those four words... Amy Winehouse is dead... I went: oh, fuck!!! Silence... I grabbed my cigarette pack,opened the living room window, and stood there, smoking, not saying a word...

Then I started asking my mother where, when, how. That afternoon, at her London home, cause unknown yet... I put Back to Black in their CD player, sat down on the couch and listened to it, smoking one cigarette after the other, while my parents were upstairs, still unpacking... My mind was empty, it felt so unreal... Later, still at my parents', the TV evening news, the Norway massacre, then Amy...Still couldn't believe it...

When I came back home later, I went straight to my laptop and spent half the night reading this forum, every news i could find, smoking and listening to Back to Black and Frank on repeat on my mp3 player.

No tears that night, they came a few days later, I was watching "The Girl Done Good", and I just broke down...

Wow, I'll stop there, my message is long enough already... But I still can't really accept her death... Life's so unfair...

Edited by Nasha, 03 December 2011 - 04:09 AM.