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[xinkoa]

I was in a camping by the beach. I did not have internet access nor tv. But that night when I went to sleep, the bar besides my tent was playing B2B in full and  then Frank came on. I thought it was so cool that I went outside to lay on the grass and listen to Amy.

Next morning, I went to buy breakfast and a guy was asking for the B2B album in a grocery shop, that was really random. Hours later a good friend of mine called me to tell me the sad news.

[CamdensAmyJade]

I was reading a forum online when i saw a post saying something like 'Amy Winehouse dead???' I didn't believe it so I went downstairs to turn on the television. Before I could, my mum said to me 'Amy Winehouse has died' - then there was a report on the radio about her death it was a truly saddening day.

[Mrs. Destiny]

I was waiting for a plane back home from Toronto, Canada when I saw it on the airport TV. I immediately started crying  

[sarahbol]

I was at home when a member of this forum sent me a text. She said something along the lines of "Have you heard it? I can't believe it..." and I knew what had happened straight away. 
Watching her the last couple of years of her life, I was always afraid of turning on my laptop and reading this news. So by the time she did die, I was prepared for it. Instead of being shocked, I felt more like "ok, so today was the day...".
That sounds like a very pessimistic thing to say but it's not that I didn't have any hope. I always hoped for the best but braced for the worst and I agree with Alfredo_t:

 

 

I was shocked and saddend that Amy had finally died, but it was not a complete surprise. I had been following her tragic decline since 2007, and I had a hunch that one day, her luck would run out.

 

[CamdensAmyJade]

for many of us, it wasn't a shock when Amy passed away. For me, it kind of still was shocking in a way. Amy had several serious overdoses and hospitalisation's but rebounded every time. She wasn't so lucky the last time.. It was a shock, I started to believe she was invincible. I love you. Amy.

[HelloSailor]

To be honest, I was more shocked from the Belgrade footage, and thought, when I saw it : "she's going to die". So when news of her death came, I was actually expecting it.

 

When I saw a snippet of that concert on the news, I hadn't really followed much about Amy in recent times (last I heard she was 'getting clean' in St Lucia, so I guess I just figured she was trying to get back on the right track, staying away from London, etc., and the few photos I saw of her, she didn't look 100% but she certainly looked better than 2008).

 

And then I saw her, looking so lost on that stage, so out of it, I felt panic. Actual panic. Because no one should ever be seeing an artist like that. I was shocked when the newscaster said this went on for the whole concert. I thought for sure someone would take her off after 5 minutes, the footage was that disturbing. I was glued to the screen. I actually googled more footage of that concert, because I just couldn't believe what I was seeing, and thought this had nothing to do with some of her previous concerts where she's drunk or high. This was something else. I actually thought she was on (prescription) drugs, I figured it was too bad to be just alcohol.

 

And I remember thinking "my god, this woman needs help". It was heartbreaking. I think your initial reaction to that footage is the most important, because I've seen it too many times since, analysing it, that I've become anaesthetized to it. That footage made me fearful for her future, I really felt like we were watching someone die, and it should've been more of a wake up call.

I also remember thinking : "Ok. This is the event that will tip her into sobriety, and her entourage into changing strategies". No more "OK Amy, if you feel like it". I thought her management would fire her to shake her up a bit. No more concerts, no more waiting for records. Set her free of all of her professional engagements, so she could concentrate on getting better, go hide away on some island.

 

I also realised there had been some sort of terrible breakdown of protocol...surely, this was not normal. This was not normal. I've been to a few concerts (mostly punk) where the band are too wasted, and the concert is of bad quality. But this was completely different. This was a desperate cry for help, a mental breakdown on stage. I'd never seen anything like it. 

 

I heard her tour got cancelled and actually felt relieved, thinking she's be going straight to rehab or something. Then the news of her death came. My boyfriend and a friend who was visiting were chatting away next to me, at home, and I was on my email account when some breaking news on Yahoo appeared. I remember thinking it was a hoax. I went to several other websites. I was so shocked. Being a secret Amy fan, I didn't say anything, and tried to act normal, fighting back tears (and trying to digest it). I couldn't help but think back to the Belgrade concert. I felt angry. We knew this was going to happen! Why wasn't someone by her side every minute of the day, protecting her from herself?

We then decided to go out for drinks, it was late afternoon and sunny. And the whole time, I just didn't know who to speak to about it, or how to bring it up in conversation. Because for me it was more than just celebrity gossip. But to most people it was "oh, that junkie finally died then".

 

I ended up coming to this forum the next day, not as a member, but as a lurker, for quite a while... took me a long time to admit I was an Amy Winehouse fan and that I was crying everyday for someone I had never met.

[newzealandamyfan]

I was probably about 8. Went to visit my grandparents with my mother. Grandad walks in and goes "Ah well you won't be hearing about her again." Mum goes, "Who?" He goes, "Amy Winehouse." She instantly replies, "Oh god, did she die?"

 

Hey we all knew it was coming but it still fucking hurt.

[AmyWinehouse9and14]

At home when I heard but was 1 mile from her house the day before and went there on the Monday.

[jaffacake]

I was at home and my boyfriend sent me a text: "Amy Winehouse dead. X" that was the first I heard then I switched on the news and it was just too sad for words. So many people expected it and weren't surprised but I just couldn't believe it. The footage of her body being removed from her house, oh my goodness. Absolutely awful.

 

I used to pretend to myself that she wasn't dead, that it was a fake story and that she had secretly gone off to live in peace somewhere in the Caribbean, sober and happy. Sometimes I still tell myself that!

[loveAMYforever]

I was at home, it was a terrible weekend anyway, the tragedy had just happened on the Norwegian island of Utoya, where this madman shot all the children. I'm just very sensitive and have trouble dealing with something like that, even if it doesn't affect me. It was in the news in Germany, I still remember it today: And we have just received the news that the English singer Amy Winehouse is apparently dead! When the news of Amy's death came, my violent reaction surprised me; I had crying fits and couldn't breathe. It was so unexpected - even though I saw the performance in Belgrade and had a really bad feeling, like something was coming to an end. Somehow strange, also the way she sits at the back of the stage in one part and listens to Zalon singing, I had very strange premonitions that I couldn't yet classify. I just kept thinking: Oh no, Amy please don't. And of course, at the same time, this anger that the people who were supposed to protect her did nothing but watched as this wonderful artist destroyed herself and everyone could watch. 40 minutes! I was happy that I lived alone and then only had to worry about my distraught cat, who is not used to such outbursts from me. And these lying messages: the same ones who had belittled her for years now wrote that it was so sad and that she was such a great talent. Lying pack! What was also bad was that I could hardly talk about it because everyone just saw Amy as a junkie and then I got upset about it again. Apparently no one around me could understand my grief and so I read a lot here in the forum because that was really the only place where I didn't feel so alone. It's strange how close you can feel to someone you've never met. But she spoke through her music, I know depression and I found her so brave in her lyrics and previous performances. She spoke her feelings and wasn't afraid, actually she was more of a poet, like Jim Morrison.