Posted 09 October 2011 - 08:08 PM
everyone deals with grief differently, and everyone's length of time to get over the initial grief and move on is different but honestly, I've been concerned about you and a couple other young ones on here for a while now. I've prayed that Amy would visit you in a dream to help you somehow get over this gripping emotional turmoil you are going through. I honestly have.
I do agree that after almost 3 months, you still have not seemed to move on from the initial stage of disbelief and utter despair. that is not healthy and I do agree that you do need to talk to some professional that can help. does your school have a grief councelor? they deal specifically with grief. I also really think it would be a good idea to sit down with at least your mom and tell her not only how you feel but what you have been going through these past three months. I think any parent would want to know if their child is in the amount of pain you seem to be in. No one can comfort like a parent can....and perhaps you both can try to find a grief councellor SPECIFICALLY a grief councellor. You need somehow to move through and past this initial grief.
I'm sure we all can concur that we have our moments of utter sadness and crying. I still do and in fact, I did last evening. I went to that 'dark place' and when I found myself near the bottom, I came here and it helped...but I've moved past the first stages. this is not working for you.
I do pray for you, darling girl. I have been concerned for a while now and honestly when I read your posts, I pray for you and hope that you can get better and move beyond.
:'-(She was the DiVinci of my music world!